Performing for you 16#

Frederick
"Exactly" I said, trailing kisses down his neck. "There is no pointing sleeping now you're awake. Anyway, I won't let you sleep."

Cali
"There is a very great point in sleeping, I may not look tired, but I am. Hey, when did you get all caught up in kissing? I thought it was my thing", I half-complained, half- never wanted him to stop.

Frederick
I kept my lips close to his neck as I spoke "But you're not doing much kissing" I noticed, placing another kiss just under his jaw.

Cali
"No I'm not, because I'm tired and you should leave me alone." To put on a proper show, I yawned.

Frederick
I gave him one last kiss, "Since I love you, I will let you sleep, but I'm getting up. Breakfast, yum" I said, stretching my legs out.

Cali
"Twinkle twinkle little star, I can hit you with a car", I muttered and buried my face into the pillow.

Frederick
"But you wouldn't" I said, getting out of the bed and heading to the kitchen. I wandered around and made up sort of breakfast, I then carried it through to the bedroom and placed it beside Cali.

{i'm blocked for cali, no muse for him atm, let's pause this rp}

Frederick
Where this came from, I had no idea, but it definitely struck quickly. I was surronded by a huge group of people and with a closer look I saw that they were the crew working on the film. They were all pointing at me, and by the sounds of what they were saying, they were blaming me for the failure of the film. One face stood out, and I tried to push through the crowd to get to him, but he just ignored me. 'Fucking awful at acting, but a damn good shag' Cali was repeating to everyone who would listen. Collison with the floor is what woke me, but I made no effort to get back up into it.

(Godmodding??)

(nope)

Cali
I woke up to a thunk on the floor, so I peeked down."Don't play concrete hockey", I shook my head with a sigh."Freddie, wake up", I nudged him. How the hell did he end on the floor? Did I push him away? I am known to be a messy sleeper, but this was ridiculous.

Frederick
I sat up slowly, shuffling back so I was leant against the wall, rubbing my forehead and pulling my knees against my chest. "Ugh" Was my only reply to him.

Cali
"Don't ugh me", I spidered off the bed to him."Nightmares?" If I knew the cause I'd know the proper reaction, whether to hug him or slap him. It all depends on him.

Frederick
I nodded, wrapping my arms around my knees. What if that was really what Cali thought of me? I really do not want or afford to think like that. But the possiblity of screwing up in this film is so likely it's not funny.

Cali
Okay. So he had nightmares. We take this gentle. I crawled to him and moved some hair from his face. But let's face it, he was the actor, not I."Shh. Those things aren't real." God forbid me ever to take care of a child. "I'm here, and I'm not a nightmare, see?"

Frederick
I kept my gaze away from him. How would he act if he thought that? Ha look at this, fretting more about my love life than the thought of people blaming me for failure of this film.

Cali
"C'mon, it's fine", I leaned my hands against his knees."Look at me." I didn't want to touch his face or anything, incase he might go boom. But I wanted him to look at me.

(go boom)
Frederick
I lifted my gaze, but not looking directly at him, I kept myself focused on his nose. His eyes were so real in the nightmare, who knew this could be a nightmare still. He is just waiting for the right time to laugh.

(yes yes)

Cali
Okay, we're gonna do this the rough way."It's fucking four am. You woke me up at fucking, goddamn, bloody four am. And guess what. I'd let you wake me up at four am if you were sad, angry with something, need help or have nightmares. If anything's wrong, you can wake me up at four am. But don't be like this. Respond. Look at me."

Frederick
"They blamed me, said everything was my fault. My shitty acting." This felt oddly childish "You laughed at me" This time I looked up and caught his gaze, "You said I was fucking awful at acting, but you only stayed with me because I was bloody good at shagging" I wanted to be more than someone's sex toy.

Cali
That sounded like something I would say, but not to him."That's why nightmares are so scary. They dig up stuff that isn't true and twist it in unimaginable ways. I'd never use somebody like that. Jen did it to me and I would never do it to anybody else. Trust me." Just how fragile did that last sentence sound, you may ask. It sounded as if a crystal vase shattered on the floor. I didn't deserve his trust, how could I ask him to give it to me? First thing I thought when I saw him, 'oh wow, I'd do him in a closet'. I'm a disguisting person, and he... he deserved more. He didn't deserve me. I shouldn't have been his first, and god forbid that I'm his last. Shit I'm gonna cry.

Frederick
I studied his face carefully, I didn't know how to reply. His look, his voice, just how he reacted made me trust him. Trust him with everything I have "I think the bed will be comfier than the floor" I noticed quietly, breaking that thought train.

Cali
"Probably." Why did he even stay with me? I wouldn't stay with me. "I think you said that before, in completely different context", I smiled weakly and climbed back up to the bed. He was the one with nightmares. Why did I want him to hold me until I fall asleep then? When did I become so frail? Was it because of him? I lay on my side, away from him. Don't look at me, don't talk, just hug me and tell me it will be okay even if it won't be.

Frederick
I smiled weakly back at him and climbed in beside him, instantly cuddling up into him. The words Nightmare Cali had said were becoming less realistic sounding, but the prospect of actually failing this film was still raw.

Cali
A child, I was such a child. I felt hot tears down my face and I sniffed loudly."I'm sorry", I whispered, "I'm sorry I'm me, I'm sorry you have to deal with me in this state, I'm sorry, I never thought that we would get this far, forgive me." I let myself cuddle up to him, craving the warmth. But I didn't deserve it.

Frederick
My eyes widened slightly at this sight, it was so unlike Cali and his usual stance. But I wrapped my arms around him, "You're sorry that you're you? I don't think I would like you any other way. But it's okay, Cali, I forgive you for whatever you did." I buried my face into him slightly, "I still love you"